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I almost likely want a guy with a tattoo but they don't need one but they look cute wih a tattoo :"

I also watched a video about a girl finding her ideal type offline but also online. It just has a twist but yeah. It has English subtitles so donut worry my prunes.

The top is female ver and the bottom is male ver nyehehe.

Henlo! Here are the main personal information about me.

NAME: 신희연 (Shin Heeyeon)

ENG. NAME: Gwen Shin

NICKNAME: Heeyeon, Gwen

BIRTH: October 25

SEX: Female

GENDER: Straight

NATIONALITY: 1/4 Chinese, Filipino, Swedish, Korean

Primary

Anyway, I want guys who are taller than me, atleast 165 cm but doesn't have to reach 6 feet, I don't like the ones who are sO tall jdksjdks. I also don't want the guys with a structured body with muscles and all but I'm fine if you have mild biceps, triceps, abs or whatever but don't be as bulky as my closet pls. I want a guy that's thin with long legs hdjshdjshd I'm fangirling hElp. I also don't care about your weight but I don't like chubby guys huhu.

Uh, what else, I don't care if you wear glasses, they make guys cute but y'all don't have to. Does voice clarity join this? I want a guy who can sing lol but you don't have to. I'm fine with a boy with any voice but I don't like the ones who sound drunk. I'm fine with a guy with piercings but only on the ear, I don't like tongue, nose, body and any piercings but on the ear istg

If I lost something here I'll kms

It's really confusing talking about my nationality so I don't know where to start. To have a broader information about this, let me talk about my maternal and paternal grandparents.

In my father's side, my grandfather is Chinese while my grandmother is Swedish that makes my father half Chinese and half Swedish. His surname is Shin which is my mother and my surname too. But during my mother's unmarried times, her surname isn't Shin lmfao.

In my mother's side, my grandfather is Korean and my grandmother is Filipino which makes her half Korean and half Filipino.

Both of my parents grew up in the Philippines and there is where they met and where they got married. Then they moved to a different country (which isn't the Philippines, Korea, China nor Sweden) and worked there and that's is where I am born, where I grow and where I study.

So that's how I ended up having four different nationalities. However, by my physical looks, I don't look anything near my nationalities the fact that they're iN ONE FRICKING BODY so my classmates in my International school was like "wtf is your nationality?," "your dad looks like Japanese, y u not Japanese," "isn't Shin a Korean surname???," and many many more and I accept myself as four nationalities. Pls don't worry about my citizenship and passport because my citizenship is obviously four and my parents only assigned me with one passport.

While I was growing up, I spoke in one language which is English but I managed to learn the four languages because in my grandparent's house they speak those and shiz and it's confusing while I grow up but my maternal grandparents helped me with it but Swedish and Mandarin were taught by my father.

In our house, we speak a dialect in the Philippines called Tagalog but world widely known as Filipino but like in the Philippines there are lots of dialects, same as China and India. And in public, we still do speak in Filipino but when talking to strangers we, of course, speak in English. In school, some people thought I'm just Filipino because I speak their language with my parents.

But in my physical looks, I don't exactly look like Swedish, Filipino, Korean nor Chinese. I'm actually have an average height for my age with pale af skin but sometimes it turns a bit tan when I'm exposed to direct sunlight for a long time (at first I'll turn red lol). My eyes aren't small and they are double lid-ed (wtf what) but I was born with small eyes haha. My face shape is like idk kinda oval with a V jaw but it seems undefined because of some face fat lol but I have a jaw line jokes on you fat mwahahaha.

So maybe that's all that I can explain with my nationality haha.

Uh so for facial features I want guys with smol eyes heheh like Asian small eye type but I'm fine eith mono and double eyelids because idc. I want to him to have a soft structured face, ugh idk but I want him to look like this bc he cute stfu. I also have links of his Instagram

To be honest, I'll look first at a person's appearance regardless of attitude when I first met them because basically that is what it is. It's like how people judge. "That person is so ugly I bet (insert attitude here)," "That person is so tall I bet he/she has (insert something here)," etc. But I don't judge people through appearance but with their shitty attitude like "She's so rood it's a waste for her beauty," but I also considerate personal problems like "She must be like that because she has been treated like that," or whatever. So it's getting off topic and if I don't cyt this off I'll get emotional so lego.

Also, I want to be really honest of all of you. I'm so sorry if someone gets affected with this ><

— A D D I T I O N A L —

So I just woke up and my friend sent me a message from a FB Messenger story of a person that was laughing about the pictures of bleeding children (maybe from a war in Syria or smthng) that was posted by CNN. She said that CNN only posted those to get money and she compared all the pictures and she claimed that they are "fake" and she laughed at it and even posted it in public.

I got so mas when I saw it and I wanted to rant about it like how can she claim it fake and she's comparing the children of each picture and she's saying that "this kid is also that kid so it's fake"??

Then I messaged her with an angry emoji then she blocked me afterwards so I can't take a screenshot of the story but I made my friend do it (she the true mvp 🖤).

I'm really mad at her behaviour. Does she need glasses to see if these children are really the same? They don't even look alike then she's confirming that they are?

If this girl wants some attention and to show the public that these photos are fake, then here she is in the Internet being infamous!

Note: Let me repeat that that is a Facebook post by CNN and she saw it and posted it in her Facebook Messenger story (it's just like Snapchat). She didn't post the literal picture where she gets 5k+ reactions from the people.

Anyway, that's all aND I'M STILL MAD GRRRR

Ideal Type

— A P P E A R A N C E —

So at first she said "nakaka lungkot" it means "it's so sad" in English. Then I don't know what happened to her bullshit and became bipolar about this tragedy she just dissed.

Then on the second picture, I don't need to translate this for y'all but I cringed at her English I don't know why, it's just my instinct. Then, she disses CNN, she can diss that but I don't know why she's getting histerical with the pictures.

Let's say it's fake, if it is, it must portray the hardships of the children, women and men from suffering in war but I don't know why she's being like this.

My Nationality

This is where people will get to know me better.

— P E R S O N A L I T Y —

Disclaimer: The photos shown aren't mine. I am giving credit to the people who owns it. Thank you!

10 Facts

W E L C O M E !

Um, so I don't like a guy who wants things fast, I'm not even willing to date someone now and I'm focusing on my education and I prioritize my self-improvement and my family first and sets that flirtatious side of me.

But maybe if I'm commited, I might date on college wahahaha but I want a guy with big dreams and who'll pursue it. Like I want him to go to a university, graduate college, have a good job, make money, buy what he wants, have a good family, and grow old with them.

I also don't want him to have negative vices like smoking, drinking and drugs because: 1. I hate people like those; 2. I hate their attitude when their active on it like when you drunk and you get aggresive, when u do drugs u be addicted and become aggresive and when u smoke u just smoke but u breaking mother nature m8

I make crappy shit so this is another crappy shit of your crappy, uh, how do we call this, author? lmfao bye

1. Speaking of author, I have a Wattpad account and I have two FanFics about a shit in the Korean group BTS called YoonMin which is Min Yoongi and Park Jimin. My @ is prawnhub (yes it's where you watch your videos, pls excuse me).

2. I'm homophobic in terms of females being gay af, they're scary, some tend to like me and I'm traumatized because of it smh.

3. I hate insects except for butterflies because they pretty. There was this time where I'm rock climbing and I saw a centipede (I know they aren't insects but idc) and I cried while I'm going back to the ground. There was also this time where I'm in my friend's house and my foot was under the couch and I felt some ticklish sensation from my leg and when I pulled it out there was a roach and I cried running back to my house HAHAHAAHH k don't judge me bye.

4. I don't do sports but I'm still underweight af like I'm 42 kg and 158 cm but I eat a lot 24/7 but sometimes I do tend to starve myself when I gain weight but I'm never trying that again nuh uh. But my parents makes me exercise but I still don't lol

5. My greatest pet peeve is everything. It annoys me when I am being called a thousand times, when I see there's something making a dry thing wet, when there's a lot of lotion or any cream on my skin, EVERYTHING. So it's really hard to get my interest. When I hate it, I'll forever hate it.

6. I don't like watching television, there's no Cartoon Network and Nickelodeon in our cable anymore so I'm in YouTube and KissCartoon just to watch. But sometimes, instead of watching, I read ohoho. I used to watch anime though but I still prefer the manga instead of anime don't fight me they're just the same.

7. I can speak in different languages: English, Mandarin, Korean, Filipino, Swedish, some Arabic and some Japanese. I'm learning French but I can't find where my motivation is so nvm.

8. If I'm at home, I sit in only one spot in my room all day unless I'm eating or taking a shower but setting those aside, yes, one spot.

9. I like sweet things at first to fifth taste but when it lasts, I don't like it anymore but when I was young I can eat a box of chocolates for a short time but I think my sweet tooth has gone with my motivation lmfao

10. Yearly, my fashion transitions from black to white, grunge to formal. In 7th grade my clothes were all dark and my hair was dyed red and I look emo af then in 8th grade my dyed my hair back to brown and I kept on wearing wide leg pants and cute pastel white tops but it still looks formal idek then I bet in my 9th grade I'll go back to my emo or grunge look because I kept on buying those platform shoes white large ass heels and leather pants.

Hi guys. I want to talk about a serious topic about myself today. I'm not being narcissistic though perhaps I'm the opposite of that. In real life, I'm really a joyful piece of shit that everyone thinks that I'm stress-free but I don't believe that people like those exist. I'm really an emotional person but I can't show it anywhere, including to my friends and my family, I only show it to myself. Sometimes, I'm even doubting that I'm lying to myself that why am I trying to hide myself from others.

I get really sensitive when someone is angry, or even mad, or even just annoyed at me. It makes me feel unappreciated but I can't show that, I mostly show the strong side of me but when I get home I'll tell it to my mother, yes, she supports me then I'll just laugh it out afterwards but I really take things seriously but I ignore truths for happiness. Sometimes, I openly tell my emotions to my friend but she don't take it seriously and she makes a joke out of it but I'll just flow with it.

I don't want to seek sympathy from others but I just want to share who I really am so people can understand what I'm going through and so I can tell that not all joyful people don't have problems. Just of what I have mentioned, I'm a very sensitive person but I don't want to express it. I don't know for myself but I don't do this to impress others. I just don't like to become a burden.

I actually mistake myself as a bipolar person or a person with two personalities but it's actually normal to become like this, right? I just have a low self-esteem when lookig at the mirror but when I see others, I higher it up for I can't see my flaws. I can't really blame the people around me because I'm the only one who is thinking that I'm not enough for them or if I was, I'll become a burden.

If I really am crazy, I don't know what I am. Am I bipolar? Have split personlities? Or just being delusional and needs to keep my shit to myself.

There was this time when someone got really angry at me and I was crying at my room blaming myself that I'm the only one who's breaking myself so people acts like that to me as if I'm a frustration. I lowed myself with the words that I'm thinking just to keep my anger away from them and conflict it to myself.

But, hey, look at the bright side, I don't like keeping things seriously in front of people. But sometimes I do wish that someone can help me and someone can really accept and appreciate me and make me feel special.

Ok, I'm just being emotional. Let's just be optimistic 🖤

Henlo guuuys~ So today I'll talk about my ideal type! Actually, a lot of people kept on asking what type of guy I like. Well to be honest, I'm a very picky person on everything and everyone. I have high expectations to a person and I expect that he or she has standards that will reach it. But if a person can't reach it, I won't hate but maybe we'll just stay as acquaintaces or even friends.

It's very humiliating to see an accepted high schooler that's about to be a sophomore to be seen like this but it's also frustrating that I want to humiliate her in public as she disses these poor people.

Here are more photos with translations: (sorry for low quality editing, you can tap on the picture to zoom it)

TBH, eventhough you have passed the appearance check, I'll throw you off a cliff and set your loof of fiya (u see wat i did there) if you're rude af. Basically, I want a person who's purely nice and sincere af, considerate and doesn't turn his mistakes on me *cough* my ex boyfriend *cough*

I also want boys who loves children and animals nyehehehehe because I love those too.

But anyway, regarding with my ex boyfriend, he seems nice at first and he also likes children but like he always blame me on everything like I woke up on the afternoon and he got mad at me because I greeted him afternoon, not morning. And I'm like bitch what the fuck?? I broke up with him because of his attitude on turning tables on me but sorry I flip tables bioTch

I also want boys who can express their feelings when their mad trough a different way but not through aggressive movements like throwing stuff and shouting like if you're like that you'll see your roof on fire hiss. I don't want them sarcastic but it's ok if it's a teasing sarcastic way thingy whatever.

I also want a guy who is goofy and can do stupid things with me like act like we're youtubers in public and troll people anywhere lol but does nothing to do with people's sanity and physical health huhu. Like, eventhough he's stupid at his acts I want gim to be considerate with people.

And also, I want him to be near God but I'm fine with atheist but if Satan is your God pls sacrifice yourself.

I want him to love his mother and himself more than me. He should be respectful to anyone except dem bad people because they bad

I want him to be hardworking, smart, independent, humble but not towards he people he hate, can share his time, sincere af, not too gallant and who can be true to himself and others.

And towards me, I want him to protecc me from bugs because that's the only things I can't manage to attacc.

But most of all, I really want a guy who loves himself but not to the level of narcissism. I want him to be balanced but who looks higher to himself and his loved ones *starts sad violin music*

Ok idk anymore that's all.

I don't like someone who has done unnatural shit wth their face because I'm anti-plastic surgery but I'm into boys who are concious with their skin and go to the dermatologist or do facials so we can do them together hehehehe. I also want a guy with a sense of fashion but no I don't like guys with baggy shorts looking like drug addicts in the streets, no. I want a guy with a sophisticated taste in fashion or like wears black clothes all the time because guys wearing black clothes are cute fite me. But other than wearing all black clothes I want them wearing minimalist clothes hehe

smh